My blood pressure has been unstable for one week now. I feel terrible. I feel used and abused. I am very angry. I want out. This isn’t healthy anymore. This is not my usual self. I used to be full of sunshine and now, I feel like I’m trying to get out of a powerful storm. This is not depression because I’ve been there and I know the  difference. I am furious of the things that should have been prevented had a careful planning was done ahead. I am sick and tired of people who see things as they are thought and forget the gray area between black and white. I am not being honest about myself and how I view things because I want conformity and now, all the pent up emotions are trying to get out of my system, knocking me off.