The World of Second Chances

Am I Officially Engaged?

July 2, 2008

Life & Love

New boyfriend expresses his desire to settle down with me next year. June 9, 2009 seems like a good wedding date. We don’t intend to make this wedding extravagant; we plan to make it as simple as possible. I don’t have the guts to ask him how much he has saved for him to have the balls to propose to me. I am still assessing my feelings for him if it’s true love or just infatuation.

Anyways, he is bent on marrying me next year. He belongs to a different religion and he asks me to be converted. I have attended two sessions with him and so far, I don’t see anything wrong in their beliefs.

I am still praying if I will push through with the wedding next year. He’s a good person and I don’t want to give him false hopes that I truly love him. Everyday is a special day, though. He loves me very much and he tries hard to prove it to me.

Am I officially engaged? Maybe yes….
“You’re My Princess”

June 30, 2008

Life & Love

Friday evening scenario.

New boyfriend holds my hands. He caresses it and squeezes it.

“You’ve got soft hands,” he said.

“It only proves how lazy I am,” I said.

“I won’t let my princess work at home. I’ll do the house chores for you,” he said.

He asked for my house key, visited over the weekend while I was out of town and cleaned my apartment. This guy’s pampering me like a princess. I do hope he stays this way until and after we get married.
I Miss You Once More

June 27, 2008

Life & Love

If I could only say this to my ex:

Hi Ex-Bf!

You know how much I hate going to the mall and you can count how many times we’ve been there (mainly, just to watch movies) that is why every visit is unique and special. Between the two of us, you’re the fashionista one so it was always you who initiated our malling.

I was at Glorietta 3 with my new boyfriend yesterday. It was you who I was with when I first went there. Every path that we walked and every stalls that we entered reminded me of us. New boyfriend stopped at a shoe store; I could see how much he wanted to buy the pair of moss green shoes but maybe, he didn’t have the cash. I didn’t want to sound arrogant by offering to buy it for him, I wouldn’t want to hurt his ego. If he were you, you would go inside the store and buy it using your credit card.

We ate in a posh restaurant, my treat. It was you who introduced me to fine dining and good food. I missed you very much while we were eating.

I went to the ladies’ room to retouch my make up. I thought I saw your reflection on the mirror near the door. Out of the blue, I went out and aggresively looked for you. Was it really you or was it my imagination that every men at the mall was you? My mouth went dry and I could feel that my tears would fall anytime. I missed you once more.

Somebody tapped my back and put his arms around me.

“Kanina pa kita hinahanap,” it was my new boyfriend.

Then I remember a text message from a friend that goes like this:

You find the perfect love but in a wrong time.

You find the perfect one but he’s not in love with you.

You find the perfect one but you must be loyal to someone else.

You got the perfect looks but no one takes you seriously.

You met the perfect personality but you’re bound to be just friends.

You got brains but got a frail heart.

You find the courage but it’s too late.

You’re ready for love but you don’t know where to start.
Di Ako Mama Material

June 25, 2008

Life & Love

I found this link on the net. (http://www.peyups.com/article.khtml?sid=3342) It’s very funny and entertaining so I’m making my own version of it. This is just a fiction.

Tinext ako ng kaibigan ko at tinanong kung sino ang gwapong kasama ko kahapon. Inisip-isip ko pa kung sino nga ba ang kasama ko sa Megamall dahil dalawa sa kaibigan ko ang nagpasama sa akin pagkatapos ng trabaho. Natawa na lang ako dahil hindi ko akalaing big issue pala ang makasama ko ang isang gwapo! Either nagtataka sya kung bakit ako pinatulan o namangha lang sya sa tindig at porma ng mala-atleta kong kasama.

Papaano namang mapagkakamalang kami eh anlaki ng agwat ng hitsura pa lang namin? Nang ipanganak yata ako ay kinulang ako sa tamang sukat at naudlot na ang taas ko sa 5’2 kung ikukumpara sa mga mala-modelong taas ng mga pinsan kong babae. Ang kutis kong namumula-naninilaw na di maarok kung ano ba talaga ay hindi naman kakinisan. Salamat na lamang at nauso na si Belo at Calayan. Ang buhok kong itim ay kailangan pang daanin sa rebond para lang magkaporma. Dadaigin ng bangs ko ang kay Betty La Fea! Naku, self-pity na ba ito? Eh, sa di nga ako mama material, noh!

Sinamahan ko si Craig para sa i-meet ang kaibigan kong type na type daw nya. Sa malas naman ay inindyan sya ng babaeng mama material talaga! Hay, wala akong binatbat pag katabi ko si Cristina! Matangkad, slim, maputi, may ngipin na tuwid at di sungki at napakagandang mukha! Si Cristina na yata ang pinakamaganda sa buong kumpanya!

Sa totoo lang, pantasya ko si Craig na maging papa dati. At ang akala ko’y may pag-asa ako sa kanya. Malay ko ba namang ang every afternoon call pala nya sa akin ay isang estratehiya lang para makuha ang loob ko at mailakad sya kay Cristina. Lokong yun, user! Saan ka ba naman di magkakatipo kay Craig? Sa taas nyang 6’2, sa porma ng katawan at mukha, aba’y lahat mapapalingon at bubulong ng “Nagustuhan sya nun?”

Nakita kong uneasy si Craig sa atensyon. Di na nya ako madispatsa lalo’t wala naman si Cristina. Nagyayang kumain ng pizza na tinanggihan ko naman. Aba, alam ko namang kinahihiya nya ang aking presensya! Mabuti’t sumunod sa mall si Alex na aking barkada.

Nagpaalam na ako kay Craig at kay Alex na sumama. Wala na namang magawa ang Alex kundi mang-alaska.

“Di ka pinansin ni Craig, no?” natatawa nyang sabi.

Sa huli naisip ko, may mga lalaking ang metric ng ideal girl ay yung panalo ang katawan, porma at mukha. Isa na si Craig dun. Hindi ko naman minamasama na ganun ang tipo nya. Naisip ko lang na dapat akong lumagay sa dapat kong kalagyan. Sa isang di mama material na gaya ko, utak at pakikipagkaibigan ang pwede kong i-offer. Gaya ng pagsagot ko sa assignment ng college classmate ko sa Calculus o ang pagiging tulay ko sa mga magaganda kong officemates ngayon. Hay naku, darating din ang araw na magiging uso ang plain looks! Isa lang akong mortal, hindi diyosang gaya ni Cristina!
Jealous Bf

June 25, 2008

Life & Love

My new boyfriend has the habit of checking my text messages. Last night, we almost got into argument because he read a flirty text message from my officemate. He suspected that that guy is also my boyfriend.

“Hon, nagseselos ako pag kung sino-sino nagte-text sa iyo,” naive boyfriend said.

I assured him that he’s the only one and I am not a two-timer. He didn’t give me the usual goodnight kiss; the long and passionate kisses that we’ve been doing for two weeks now. I woke up unusually early and tried to figure out if I am guilty of entertaining suitors inspite of my new relationship.

I didn’t expect that my naive boyfriend would be this serious in our relationship. For me, he was just one of my one-date-men. But then, he said that he has always been in love with me from the day that he first saw me. But I guess, it’s true that I’m falling in love with him. I feel guilty for unintentionally hurting his feelings by being friendly with my admirers.
More Than A Decade Late

June 24, 2008

Life & Love

He went back to her life after 14 years. They were childhood sweethearts. She’s now engaged to her boyfriend of four years. She’s confused. She feels that she loves them both. But he’s more than a decade late to express his love.

I am in a similar position with my officemate. I have someone in my life that I know I can’t be mine because he’s committed to his girlfriend. During the time that he was free, I was the one who was not free. When the time came that I was free, he was the one who was not free. Funny how fate played a trick on us.

Sometimes, when you least expect it, someone better comes into your life even if you’re very much committed to your partner. Fidelity comes first to me than personal satisfaction.There must be a reason why fate played a trick on us. If this world is parallel to another world somewhere, maybe there’s a chance for us to express our feelings where nobody will be hurt and feel betrayed.
Unexpectedly

June 23, 2008

Life & Love

There are times when everything that happens in your life is so unexpected; you
barely have time to think if you are doing the right thing.When it comes to matters
of the heart, I have learned to be wiser after two failed relationships that left me
emotionally broken. There was a time when I thought, I could be single forever and
I wouldn’t really care. But as they say, love is like a thief in the night; you’ll
never know when it will come.

Unexpectedly, I came across this man five years my junior. He was just a casual
acquiantance; we didn’t even start with hi’s and hello’s; just very casual. Until now,
I can’t remember how I met him, how he looked like before and how we treated each
other. But then, we were destined to know each other better.It was so instant; a few
weeks back,he reconnected with me; he smiled at me and I did the same.

When he invited me for dinner, I thought that he was just another one-date-man. (I earned
the reputation of not having second-dates if the first date was not impressive!)
We had a wonderful evening that lead to something deeper and more serious. He divulged
that he has always been in love with me. It was a revelation that surprised me because
he never appeared interested in me.

Then, the unexpected thing happened; I gave him a chance. I told him that after my
traumatic relationships, I am not ready for commitment and true love. He said that he’d
be willing to wait until I’m emotionally settled. Unexpectedly, I didn’t object.

He does things that endear him to me. He’s naive and sweet; very different from the
previous men in my life. He loves me like a teenager who believes in fairy-tales.
I forgot that I was once a teenager, he let me feel again the feeling of being young
and in love.

I am aware that he cannot give me the material comforts that my previous relationships
provided. But is love all about money? Isn’t it about compatibility and happiness?
Isn’t it about co-dependency? Isn’t it about rowing the boat together? Unexpectedly,
I am willing to gamble on him. I am willing to give him a chance to prove himself.
Unexpectedly, I think I am falling in love with him…..