The World of Second Chances

Taking Time To Smell The Flowers

September 22, 2011

Life & Love

My pregnancy is giving me the opportunity to slow down on many things. This is not an easy pregnancy and I’ve lost 4 kilos in the past four weeks. As much as I wanted to protest for this unplanned pregnancy, I decided to embrace it and welcome the newest member of our family. (Don’t get me wrong. We planned to have another child by 2013. The blessing came this early, I was overwhelmed at the start)

I’m now living my life one day at a time. I probably lost that over-enthusiasm to make it to the top at work but this is just a temporary setback. I shall be back to my old self after giving birth. Why should I dare to stress myself at this delicate condition? My child’s health is more important than my work.

I now see the beauty of spending time to smell the flowers. Sometimes, being lazy is good; it gives you the needed energy for that anticipated comeback. How I love to lie down on the bed while listening to the sound of my favorite music. Being detached to the stressful life at work makes me more forgiving and more tolerating of other people’s shortcomings.

The breeze is cold and equinox is approaching. I would never notice this had I been too busy with my work. 🙂
Happy Birthday, Friend!

September 17, 2011

Life & Love

Tomorrow is your 34th birthday and I decided to greet you in advance. My domestic life is taking much of my time and I might forget your special day. Now that we’re both older but wiser, I wish that we could bring back the happy times that we spent during our high school years. You were my bestfriend and I secretly envied your charmed life. While my family was financially struggling during those years, you led a comfortable life in the corners of your beautiful home, surrounded by a loving family and supported by a group of loyal friends. I was afraid to share with you my insecurities about life; afraid that you might not understand where I was coming from. We graduated in high school with a heavy heart, we continued our communication through snail mails. I was very proud of you as my bestfriend.

The unexpected thing happened when I got pregnant in the middle of college. I wanted to die then. I was in deep regret and shame for what I did and it left a permanent scar in my heart. I wanted to tell you how I was feeling, how I wanted to end my life and how guilty I was for failing my parents. But I realized that you were that girl who led a charmed life. How could someone as nearly perfect as you understand someone as imperfect as me? But the news reached you and you immediately sent me a greeting card. You were hurt and you felt betrayed. You thought I did not trust you enough. I tried to explain that I wanted to tell you my situation in person. I didn’t know if you believed that alibi. I made up by getting you as one of Chang’s godparents. Again, we were able to save the friendship.

I went back to Baguio with a heavy heart, the baby was left in my parents’ care. It was the toughest decision in my life: proceed with my studies and face the insults OR stay back home and take another course. My mother told me that she preferred the first option and I obliged. I had plans of taking Chang with me and leave her in her father’s care while I can visit her everyday. But that option was not taken seriously by her father’s side. When I decided to end that relationship three years later, I decided not to tell that to you. How can someone with high morals like you understand someone who’s not moral (at that time) like me?

I got involved with another man, got into a problem and that was the time when I decided to ask for your help. You were shocked, confused but nevertheless, treated me with kindness and understanding. I was so ashamed of myself then. I wanted to see you personally to tell the whole story but I had no guts to do so. I let that problem pass and pretended for the next five years that this relationship was worth fighting for.

We had a mini-reunion in 2004 and that was very memorable for me. There I was, sitting side by side with the bestfriend that I underestimated. I tried to bring back the warmth of our friendship but I could feel that it was too late. We had been through a lot of misunderstandings and the damage could be irreparable.

Let me just tell you that I am very sorry for the things that I did in the past. I underestimated our friendship and I was the one paying for it now.

Happy birthday!
Man Enough To Apologize

September 15, 2011

Life & Love

A high school friend shared his fear for his young daughter’s future relationship. A playboy during his heydays, he changed for the better when he met my friend, also a high school friend. It was a whirlwind romance and he was even dating somebody else at the time that he was pursuing my friend. The two eventually got married and settled in the States. Their bundle of joy is a cute 16-month old baby girl. He’s afraid of karma and he thinks that having a baby girl is somehow his karma for breaking his ex-girlfriends’ heart. I assured him that being a changed man, karma will not strike him or his daughter. I told him that his baby girl will lead a peaceful life. He said that he has said sorry to all the girls that he had a relationship with and I commend him for that. Not every man is MAN enough to admit his mistakes and apologize for it.
Not referring to my friend but isn’t it that not every man will say sorry to the one he dumped.
Not every man will say sorry to the one he cheated on.
Not every man will say sorry to the one he physically abused.
Not every man will say sorry to the one he emotionally abused.
Why is it hard for some men to say sorry? Would it hurt their pride to do so?
Shamcey Supsup Put Up A Good Fight

September 13, 2011

That’s Entertainment

Being 3rd runner up aint bad.
Shamcey Supsup put up a good fight.
Can’t wait to watch the replay as I just learned the good news from online radio.

=)
No Other Woman

September 12, 2011

That’s Entertainment

Reference: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TY6kbg_WmEQ&feature=related

Showing on Sept. 28, 2011.

Movie ng mga nangangaliwa, may balak mangaliwa at ayaw pahuling nangangaliwa. Who’s in a better position in love, the wife or the mistress? Uso ngayon ang mga kabit na independent. Hindi na uso gaano yung kabit na nanghuhuthot. This makes the kabit more exciting debah? May free sex na, wala ka pang obligasyon. Pero paano kung ang simpleng FUN ay naging seryosohan? Kapag feelings na ang umiral, wala ng right or wrong. Labanan na lang yan ng orig at kabit—pagandahan, paseksihan, pagalingan. In the first place, bakit nga ba may pumapayag maging kabit? Siguro nga dahil sa LOVE churva.Eh kung si Derek Ramsey ba naman ang kakabitan mo, paninindigan mo na nga siguro na maging mistress.
What Really Happened To Aifha?

September 8, 2011

Life & Love

I was watching the morning news when the death of a call center agent named Aifha caught my attention. While “Unang Hirit” was careful not to present graphic images of the damage on Aifha’s body, I could still feel the gravity of physical damage the accident costed on her. The girl was only 20 years old, a productive citizen who worked as a call center agent. There was a report that prior to the hit and run, she was busy talking with someone over her cellphone. Another report said that she was listening to the music with her headset on that was why she did not notice the warning (beeping) of the coming red Mazda that hit her. To make matters worse, she was robbed off her personal belongings! Poor girl!

But what really happened to Aifha? First hand witnesses said that she was NOT talking with someone over her cellphone and she was NOT listening to the music with her headset on when the accident happened. She simply got off the jeepney and ran to the other side of the road when a speeding red Mazda hit her.

What is the speed limit in that area? How fast was the red Mazda? What is the condition of the pedestrian in that area?

I am not impressed by speeding drivers unless I’m watching F1 on TV. Some drivers could be thrill-seeking without taking into consideration the lives that they could ruin should an accident happen.
Surviving The First Trimester in Pregnancy

September 6, 2011

Life & Love

Aversion to certain foods, sleepiness, dizziness, vomiting, nausea, mood swings, back pain, headache—the curse of the first trimester in pregnancy. Some women even experience it for the whole nine months! Last September 4 was my second month of pregnancy. I don’t really know when conception occurred but medically and technically speaking, since July 4 was the first day of my last menstruation, then I am now on my second month even if conception occurred in August.

I’m a working mother, careerwoman is a better description. I devote my time to church, family and work. I had an easy pregnancy with Adi so there never was any pregnancy-related interruption or absences. This time, my morning/afternoon sickness is terrible! I realize that all I need to do is to embrace what’s happening inside of me. Because the more I think of how awful I feel, the more I feel miserable about this difficult pregnancy.

1. No rushing- I’m a tomboy. I prefer boots and sneakers over high heels or stilletos. I’m always on the go. I even run to the swiping area just to beat the 8:00 AM time in. Now, fast movements make me dizzy. I’m taking things slowly and temporarily put my tomboy personality on hold.
2. Ice cold water- Whenever I feel like vomiting, I sip ice cold water. Ice cold water relaxes and refreshes my mouth.
3. Mint candies- Clorets mint candies are now my bestfriend. It refreshes my mouth and it removes the metallic taste most pregnant women have.
4. Salonpas- For stiff neck and stiff shoulder, Salonpas makes a good pain reliever.
5. Wet wipes- A must aside from ice cold water. Wet Wipes provides a relief once the dizzy spell comes in. Simply wipe on face and neck to freshen up.
6. Good Pillow- There are pregnancy pillows available in the market. If you can’t afford one, buy something big and soft to have a comfortable sleep.
7. Lotion- Vitamin E capsule will do, too. Now is the time to prepare your skin for stretching. Pamper the skin around your tummy with mild lotion or vitamin E to nourish it.
8. Banana and Crackers- When taken in the morning, banana and crackers are said to prevent morning sickness.
9. Rest- Don’t force yourself to clean the house if you can’t. Now is the time to be lazy! Give yourself a much needed rest.
10. Look forward to the 2nd and 3rd trimester!- Preparation is very important. Have you filed your SSS Maternity Notification? Have you updated your Philhealth status? How much money can you save? Where will you borrow money in case the worst thing happens? Have you started teaching your teammates about your job? Have you told your boss about your pregnancy?